"When I decided to give up and stop looking for love, love found me. I no longer regret all the past sufferings. The pain and misery shaped me up to who I am today. Without these invisible scars I would not be humble. Without loss, I wouldn't have searched. Without searching, I wouldn't have stepped out from the shadows of depression, and I would never have been found.
Now that I'm feeling the warmth of such selfless affection, I finally came to an understanding. The things I had to let go were never meant to be. The adoration I had felt just might have been my illusion. It was never real. The endless nights of falling into an abyss, the bitterness choking me as I longed for things that I deemed impossible to have, they are all probably products of my shattered ideals. Pride, yes, it must be the culprit - for as they say, love that is too painful is not love.
But this time, it's different. There's this certain warmth which replaced everything that's used to be engulfed by ice. It was as if the sun is finally shining upon me. Smiling is no longer painful, and I feel a certain freedom - freedom to give not just my heart, but all of me.
The search is over. Love is here not by chance or by anyone's will. It is fate.
A/N: I'm back...probably LOL will be posting stuffs soon =) see you